Bad Dreams.

Ok..
so today I was sad-ish...
i was crying at break, and what i thought would happen... was exactly what happened.
But the reason i was crying was because of a dream i had last night. It was kind of just like everything over the past two years combined. well just the things i remember.. Like, my mom was alive in it. and then Justin... he was dating Elsa... after that part i woke up crying.. And then when i finally fell asleep again it was like time for me to get up. well an hour before i had to get up. and then it was like a continuation of the dream. And it was all the fights between my brother and my dad... and all the fights between my dad and my mom, and all the fights between my brother and my mom...And then i woke up again crying after half an hour.
And C... is going to Rosedale. and like i know that this is going to happen... She is going to see Justin, Justin will see her, they fall madly in love and she will say to me "hey Allie, remember that pinkie promise about i wont date Justin? Is it ok if i date him?" and then i wouldnt be a bitch about it. i would say go the fuck ahead. But on the inside id be dieing. i know i would, even if i had a boyfriend (ha me with a boyfriend.) and lets say i was completley happy. her saying that, would still kill me.
like it would KILL me.
But like i said,
I would not be a bitch about it. i wouldnt want him to be sad because i would not let him date the girl he likes...
but yeah
its just going to happen... but im going to like try TRY, the best i can to make sure nothing of that sort will happen.
im such a bum.
I really hope i will have a better dream than last night, i really need sleep...
because, a mix of those three things is just too much at one time