I wait for you to come and save me
I Hope that you will come and show me
and tell me...
That you cant take me off your mind
That you were just scared to read the signs
That we could actually be something more then friends in love
Then I would tell all the things
That I have been to let you know
and we could actually be something more the friends in love

Thursday, April 30, 2009

wa.

Tonight i was suposed to be happy. and it was suposed to be all whoopie we are done, we can just relax.
this has turned out two be one of the worst days i have had yet.
first. my dad and my step mom get in a big fight. LIKE DO YOU THINK, I WANT TO HEAR MY FATHER AND MY STEPMOTHER FIGHTING AS SOON AS I COME BACK FROM HERO/ HEROINE? NO! I DO NOT. it was over the stupidest thing too. its realyl annoying.
and plus. my dad owed me for like two weeks of allowance so i asked him for it and these were my exact word "dad, can you leave the money on the table tomorrow?im sorry for asking, its just i want to go out tomorrow." and he says "STOP SAYING THAT. YOU DONT FEEL SORRY."
i am actually in tears. you dont know how bad i just wish i culd be with my mom. like. i dont mean here. i mean where ever she is. farther away from this house. i dont want to be here. and the thing is, when ever i cried at my dads house, iwould call my mom and she would feel so bad that i was crying and now, i have no one to call. NO ONE. i dont think any of you know what its like to have the most important person in your life just die. WHILLE YOU ARE IN THE ROOM.
i hate it when this happens. the tears are running down my face, and i dont know how to stop them.
All my moms friends said, the moment my mother died. that if i ever needed anything. or if i was sad or soemthing, they did care how late it was i could just call. but they new i wouldnt do it. which is why they said it. like i still see them and everythng. but its not the same. and its kind of weird. i hate this so much.
i just hate this.
but there is always tomorrow. and right now. the only thing i am looking forward to is to go shopping tomorrow.
but even still, although in technicality i see this person everyday, i never seeeee her. she doesnt even want to hang out with me anymore. and i dont think she nows how much i miss her. and i just want her to be happy. and thats all i want her to know. so know matter what i say here. DO NOT listen. please, because if you listened to what i say.. i will end up hating my self moret han anyhting.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

still really sorry

now i feel like such a bitch.
i don't want to do anything. like i feel so sick because of it. and like roar. i surprisingly have like a HUGE consions and i feel so sick because of him finding that. like i didnt sleep last night, and i didnt eat breakfast this morning. and last night Anya was over and i was just like sad after. and she was just watching movies whille i was trying to do something to forget about it.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

im sorry.

ok. well
this is a message for Justin Platnar... when i wrote that message, i still really liekd you, even though it was like 3 months, i still just really liked you and i dont know, i was just really mad. i know it was still not a reason, and i didnt think that you would ever see that message, so i am really sorry, but i was just really mad.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

another realtionship?

ok well..
this friday. happens to be the worst friday ever.
because...that is the day my mom died.
April 24th 2007. FUCK. but im going to hang out with... person.
and yeah.
it should be fun? well its a party anyways. last time i went to one of these persons partys... it ended in a relationship with a person from that party.. we all know who that is. what if that happens again?

ok well im goingto go.
Allie xoxoooo

Monday, April 20, 2009

party/

"he cant see the smile im faking, and my hearts not breaking, cause im not feeling anything at all"

ok, well yeah, let me continue on with my rave from earlier.
like all my friends are the type of people that if they like someone, they like ALWAYS like them back, its so annoying, rar rarararararararar.
well yes. i dont know. i cant wait for rosedaleeeee..
Kara she is not comming to the party.
so yeah Kara and i are planning a party. and she wants the girl i hate with burning passion to come, i hate her so much, if i even have to look at her for more than five seconds, i will jump on her and scratch her eys out yeah and anyway we are only aloud to have like ten people not including our selves. so she will not be one of the magnificent 10. she is a bitch. ROAR.

kArA and MoI

" romeo save me i've been feeling so alone, i keep waiting for you but you never come"

Hi i am a girl. i have a vagina and i am amazing.
why cant it be as simple as that?
like, ok. thats like all guys need to know about you, that you are a female, that you dont have a penis (by the way Kara is here) and that you are like the greatest person in the world. (i dont mean in bed) and like ROAR. why do i keep liking people..
im tired of falling for people who dont fall back.
you know. well know, most people dont know, because my friends are the type that every guy that they have liked likes them back.
im not gonig to lie.
i have liked a lot of guys. but there are only like four that i ACTUALLY liked, and wanted to date and shit. there Adrian, Nate..., Justin and.... Michael.... oh god. i hate saying the names of people when like they might read this, but like i know probably nate justin and adrian wont read this. well anyway got to go "entertain Kara"

Thursday, April 16, 2009

if i had a time machinee...

soo... um i feel like
i
am
so
...
BLAH.
everyone is so happy, and im like so sad. i hate my life so so soo much. like ten times more than anyother person. like. i dont want to be a drama queen or a b!tch but, it just seems to come out that way. i wish i was back in elementary school. or just go back in time and accept the Jarvis letter instead of the Rosedale letter.
this is annoying me so much, i dont know how i will deal with seeing all the faces of the people i hate next year, some i dont hate, but some i really do. if i went to jarvis, i wouldnt know anyone, and i would have a fresh start, the only option i have now is to just, not talk to any of the people i used to know, and just be a different person, become the person i was, not the person i am. who i am hates who i have become, no one would have wanted me this way, especially my mom, i guess the only reason i wanted to go to rosedale is because everyone else was. and, that both my brothers went there, i dont know, and next year especially will be crap, because Andreas is there, and he will probably fail, so he has to stay back a year, so either way (he might not fail, but he will probably take a 5th year) i have three years left with him. and thats is basically all of my high school years, because unless my mind completley changes, on what i want to do in my future i will take a 5th year,
and i dont know i dont mean to bitch. its just, really annoying. like
rawr. so, i dont know, and then if i change my mind later on in grade 9 and i discover that i really do want to hang out with the people i knew, they wont want to hang out with me.even Ros has already moved on. we were going to go in on the first day of school and rate every single guy. now, yesterday, she was doing that with Charlotte. i hate it!
i hate my life i hate my life i hate my life i hate my life.
rawr..
this is a really crap feeling. but anyway.
the only person who i think actually still reads this is Mitch. so mitch, you win 5,000 dollars.
and you also get the privalage of reading me whinning,
was that a bad sentace? i think so. oh well. i am nervesss.
poo.
well anywayi have to go take a showwaa.
tata.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

omg.

ok, well Justin wasnt there, so i didnt bitch slap him :(
thats sad :(
2 days for lauras birthday.. im really mad that Justin wasnt there. like i was actually going to do it, i wasnt gonig to chicken out :(
well anyway.. i like this guy.
but okay, so now i have glasses again. and now i can actually see what i look like, i look so ugly, i am so stupid, i thought i looked like, ugh well never mind, i look so ugly. i hate this, not that i have glasses. that i am thsi UGLY.
this is really annoying, im glad in a way that Justinwasnt there, but i am mad that the kid i DO like WAS there.
life is not fair.
i am really bored. like really.
and there isnothing t do cause i am with my sister. this is reall y really annoying.
i want to go to shoppers, but i cant because i spent my money at starbucks, and charlotte owes me five bucks and seriously if i dont have that money by tomorrow i am really going to get mad at her, she owes me this from before the break.
welll i have to gooo. byebyeee

Monday, April 13, 2009

people i wish id never met.

" you can change your hair you can change your clothes. yuo can change you mind it just the way it goes, you can say goodbye and yuo can say hello, ubt you'll always find your way back home" - Miley Cyrus...

ok, i actually love that song. i know im a loser. but i love it, i also loved LOVED that movie.... (L)LucasTill(L)
right now, i should be about to go to sleep. i need to wake up at 6 tomorrow because my stepmom is like taking my hole family to her dads house in teh morning to say goodbye because he is going to florida for like a month.
i think sarah que deleted me as a friend on MSN and Facebook.
ima go to sleep now,
but like before i do, let me just say how mad i am. like Kevin, he can lke any girl, and by teh end of the first week, they will be in a full on relationship. but then... ugh never mind. im just stupid.
i should have transfered to bowmore instead of E.A.S.T, i hate this so much. i wish i never met all these people, like i love my friends, thats not the people i wish i never met, but like Bonnie, or L,
i just hate all these people and i dont want to be like, ew i hate you, because then they would turn all these different schools against me. like all the people at E.A.S.T would hate me if they new the hatred i have for L. she is such a fake ass hole bitch.
and Bonnie, like i am actually friends with her, i just wish i never met Justin Platnar.
he is such an assssss.
im just really mad at a lot of things right now. so im going to so to sleep now..
bye bye
xoxo Allie:)

corner gas, we shall miss theee.

2 more days till the bitch slap happens :)
im about to watch the corner gas series finale. i lvoe it..!
im listening to a song from Shrek 2 right now. its called accedentaly in love (L)
i love ti, i watched it like two days ago, and i love this song, i have to go now and watch the series finale (L)(L)
i loveeeeeeeeeeee this guy.... (not JP- although i dooo love him)
ok well after this thingy is over i shall right back.
i found a science book after all.... yeaah bye byue for now/

Sunday, April 12, 2009

facebook notes

I dont have my science book :(
so i am fucked.
omg i was just watching a Russel Peters movie, and he was doing a little thing on sign language. and he was like the sign for retard is this thingy... and thats a thing Justin always did! OMG i was like dieing i was actually shitting in my pants... except not actually shitting.
i have a really bad headache.... waa.
i am so bored. my dad is a bum and doesnt celebrate Easter... he celebrate the joyus holiday of greek easter which is like a hole 7 days after normal easter... like what the point, seven says is not that long a time period. so i have to wait for another pointless week to be a fat ass and eat chocolate.
i talked to Nik today, apperiantly he is comming home on the 25...
molly bought me a dress yesteray
i love it!
i cant believe she acvtually bought me it though, it was like thirty dollars, i would never do that. like EVERR. maybe for there brthday, or if i was like older and not in my teenage years.
jesus. the missing years.
that jist came to mind. the reason for all the spelling errors is becaue i still dont have my glasses and i cant see what buttons im pushing.
i get to slap ass face in 4 days.. omg its going to be so epic..
omg.. i want to do a facebook note on this little nifty blog thing.... ok
hereeee goes:

After your done this note tag anyone!!
no, fuck you

GENERAL

ONE - spell your name without vowels: Lxndr bchnn prrs

TWO - Are you single? yee

THREE - Whats your favorite number? 13

FOUR - What color do you wear most? i wear a viriety of coolors

FIVE - Least favorite color? greyish greeny color.

SIX - What are you listening to? my paper heart -- greese

SEVEN - What do you smoke? nothingg

EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now? sometimes yes. right now no

NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity? nope.

TEN - What is your favorite class(es) in school? drama and english even trhough they are like the same thing?

ELEVEN - Do you shop at tna/aritzia/AE?: AE

TWELVE - DO you shop at Bluenotes'/Hot Topic/hmv?: bluenotes and hmv when i buy movies.

THIRTEEN - How do you make money? birthday holidays

FOURTEEN - What's your cats name? i dont own a cat. so ill say Persia.

FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing? suree

SIXTEEN - One word to describe you? hah

SEVENTEEN - Favorite hat? my black one?

EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses? yep. i got them from the movie theater. tey are 3D Glasses :P

NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now? i dunno

TWENTY - What should you be doing right now? notihng.. well looking for someone to borrow a math book from,

TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now? sadly yep

ANGER

1. Are you currently mad at someone? yes.. :@

2. Which family member has the worst temper? my papss

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone's face? yes....

4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? not really

5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell? YELL

EXCITEMENT

1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you? nope

3. Which of your friends is most excitable? Laura or Molly

4. If you won a million $'s what would be your first thought? SHOPPING SPREE BITCH

5. If you could have anything right now, what would it be? oh.. i think you now... an italian sports carrr... no. jksjsk

YOU

1.Your name? Allieeee
2. Where do you live?
3. What's your main goal in life? succsesfullnesss
5. How do you want to die? eating a peace of cake. but not choking. i just want to faint. and then i would be dead.

OPINIONS

1. Sex before marriage? i dunno

2. Lower the drinking age? dont care, i dont drink

3. Abortion? when people need them

4. Recycling? a'course

LOVE

1. Do you like someone? sadly x2.

2. Who? a boy

3. What is he/she like? an ass face

4. Who is the best hugger that you know? lulu

5. Do you believe in love at first sight? yeah

LAST

1. Person you saw last (not in your family)? mollay

2. Person you hugged? dad

3. Movie watched? the russel perters show on dvd.... ha

4. Song you listened to? greased lightning

NOW

1. What are you doing now? answering disss question

2. What are you doing/did you do today? nothing

3. What are you going to eat for dinner? iunno

TOMORROW

1. Is: no schooool :)
2. What are you doing? GOING TO FIND A SCIENCE BOOK

CURRENTLY

1. Currently love someone? yah
2. Like someone? for fuck sakes!
3. Do they know it? not anymore.
4. Is it a simple or complicated situation? simple? how the fuck can liking someone be complicated? lol.
5. Does someone like you? oh god. its been five fucking months give it a rest...






WOW THAT WAS POINTLESSSSS! a facebook note on a "blog" wowwww.
i hate myself.
ima go do homewokr so i dunn have to do it tomorrow :)
byeee

Saturday, April 11, 2009

alalala

Ok, im glad shes happy, and i dont want to be like oh well rawr.
i am like so beyond happy that they are happy, but like why do i not get to see them anymore?
like i know its been 3 days but, without them it seems like an eternatie. like the otehr day when we were about to walk home, my friend Autymn came and was like lets hang out today and i was like no i have to wait for this person and then i waited for like 30 min, and then they come out and they say, im going to gerrard square with A.

okay, well right now i am watching a movie and listening to music...
woah, how does that workkkkkkk.
OMG THE HANNAH MONTANA MOVIE WAS SO AMAZING, I LOVED IT! AND LUCAS TILL IS SO HOT, I AM MARRIED TO HIM, BECAUSE HE IS LIKE GORGOUS AND I AM LIKE OMG.
well yeah
this is pointless.
soo bye byee

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

:):):) BITCH SLAP.

"i've never kissed a girl, i never fell in love"- The Bomb-something or rather..

Ros, Charlotte and Aidan saw Justin today....
AIDAN BROKE HIS PROMISE.I
AM NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER TRSUTING HIM AGAIN.
He said, ugh, well it doesnt matter anymore....
i cant WAIT till the 15th... ima bitch SLAP Jplat.
and Ros says he'll be like "that was a demon slap.."
hah....
its going to be fun!!!
FUN FUN FUN.
i am on the phone with Laura...
and she is really excited... because her brother is comming home, and he is bringing home his girl friend..
and he never brings home girlfriends.

fatty,

ok.
so i havent "blogged" in a whille.
i am happy? i dont know, Charlotte wont date HIM. So thats good,
i want to go to ardene to buy bathing suit, except i really shouldnt i am a fat ass.
or a purse if i dont get a bathing suit.
well i have to go do some thing with my step monster
ill post later tonight!
Seen your face
Yesterday I met you I just can't forget you baby (oh)
Your embrace
If the wrong were the right then the battles that we fight
Would be worth it
You make me feel
You make me feel
You make me feel
You make me feel
So good
Well i know sometimes
Ive made mistakes
Ive gone and choose the wrong way
But i need to to know
That ill always love and only need you