WOW.... its all my fault.

OK...
so the guy,
lets get to the guy.
When ever i talk to him everything just feels so right.
but then when i don't talk to him it makes me feel like he doesn't like me anymore. And i know that's not a good reason, but it works.
Well its not even that, its just, he used to start all the conversations we had, but now he DOESN'T. and its like, if he doesn't, then he doesn't like me.
But if i start the conversation everything just feels weird. And i love talking to him, other than a couple of my guy friends (but i mean like my good guy friends, ones that i talk to regularly), i have trouble talking to guys because its like they judge ,e so easily, and its like i have nothing to say, unless they don't mind some weird girl. But then with him, i can talk to him no problem, the first couple of times i was shaky, like i actually was shaking, and then i would ask one of my guy friends what to do, and he would tell me. But then now, he doesn't start the conversations, he is online right now but we are not talking and when we don't, i feel shitty and i write on my crap ass blog. But i don't know what to do. its like, i forced him to ask me out. because there is this guy who used to ask me out a lot. (while i was going out with the guy)and i told him that, but then he sent me a message saying
"I'm really sorry about that. I didn't ask you out because of what you said, I'm not that kind of guy. I was going to ask you out anyways and I thought that might be the right time, I really did mean that and I hope you can forgive me."
And like, the more i think about it the more i think like i forced him into something he doesn't want. and i would rather me be with out him, having him happy, then have him with me, regretting it.