So like i said in my first post i talked about a guy, and how much of a jerk he turned out to be. But right now, i guess I'm in a relationship that's actually working, and i haven't been this happy since gr.6 . He is so nice. I have only had one previous relationship but we only went out once, and i ended up breaking it off... After i wish i hadn't and when i met my "boy friend" everything changed, i started smiling, and feeling happy. When i broke up with the first guy, i was so sad, cried at the littlest things, one of my favorite songs i would listen to at the time i was going out with him was "Hot'n'Cold" by Katy Perry. And i went to my friends Bat mitzvah and that song came on, and i just remember breaking down and crying. And at my friend Aysha's party, i tried calling him for an hour to talk to him and try and make up. But he never answered his phone. But then, i was lucky enough to get invited to this girl Bonnie's party, her and i used to be close friends, but now not so much, but anyways, at the party there was a guy there, and i remember sitting with my friend Lindsay rating him. Asking her if she thought he was hot or not, and then the next week i get an e-mail form the girl Bonnie and she is really angry saying that he likes me to! And you could imagine me. I was so happy, but i didn't no why she was mad, it turned out she liked him to, but this time i got the guy. So i started talking to him and we went out. this guy has changed my life so much, i used to have the worst self esteem, i refused to eat, i had trouble sleeping because a few years back my mom passed away, and then having him like me proved to me that it was OK to eat, i didn't have to be skinny i just had to be me. And although the sleeping thing didn't get better, it actually got worse because i was so happy and excited. But when i did get sleep, i would have the best dreams about him. And that would make me want to sleep more. So in a way it did help me. I love talking to this guy, and even though i know things aren't going to last forever, i still have him right now. He's the hole package, he's nice, funny, smart, attractive, unlike the first guy. He was nice, but I'm not shallow enough not to like or not go out with someone because of what they look like. I have been put in that spot before and it doesn't feel good. But i am so grateful to this guy, he has awakened me and has made me feel like its alright to just be me.
He has proved to me that it is possible to love someone, even at such a young age. He has shown me that its OK to be happy even though she's gone. He has made me see that no matter what there will always be apart of me that will love him forever.
I will always love him.
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