thinking.....

mmmm..
so today i was thinking.
Why waste my time with someone who will only be with me for a little while?
Like don't get me wrong but,
i can obviously tell that he doesn't like me anymore.
Its just, that, well...
He goes to a different school than i do, and like they are so much girls that might be better for him
and i am like the type who will never stop liking someone for like ever,
it takes to long.
Like Nate. omg Nate, i liked him for the longest time,
it was actually just till the day dec 23rd. that i stopped.
And like Adrian, 3 years of my life i will never get back.
So its just like,
if i know he doesnt like me,
why do i still try
or even have these feelings, because i know that once its gone
he will never like me again.
and i dont want it to be like once we stop,
we hate each other.
But like im pretty sure no one gets it right now, or these posts dont make any sense.
Its just because i am so confused.
Like
1. I LOVE HIM
2. Does he still LIKE me? ( hense like, as in no more than a friendly crush)
3. Why bother if i know it will end badly - meaning that once its done that we like 'hate' each other.
4. I LOVE HIM
5. What if, since we go to different schools, he meets someone else he likes more
6. I LOVE HIM

i guess its pretty obvious that i love him.
But i guess thats enough,
and if he likes me than he does,
and if he doesnt... its his choice, and i cant change his mind for him.