My First Love

I may only be a thirteen year old girl. But I have a big heart. And that's all you really need when you love someone as much as i loved him, I knew him since i was in JK but then we turned out to be good friends till gr.6 ( till we graduated elementary school). But then we started out going to different junior high schools. When we started out he was going to the school I really wanted to go to. I have had a crush on him since i was in gr.5 he might have had an influence on what school i wanted to go to. But, when i went to a different school, i got "bullied". And had the opportunity of switching to his school. I graciously took the offer and switched. But when i got there all was far from perfect. One of my best friends today liked him, and he liked her. Things had changed since gr.6... He had changed. When it got down to it, i really should have just been brave enough to talk to him right away on my first day, but know, i waited for him to make the first move. So i waited and waited for a month. But things weren't moving. So when i finally got the courage up to talk to him. It had been to late. He had changed to much for me to even know who he was. And its still like that today. I no longer have this major massive love fling going for him but, there is a part of me that will always remember things as they used to be, like they were when we were younger. He went out with 4 of my best friends in the time i liked him. The first was my friend Molly, she didn't really like him, but he had liked her since gr3 so she gave him a chance when he was in gr 6 and she was in gr 5. Then next was another one of my friends Elsa. She and him had liked each other for a month before they started dating, and everyone new it would happen, this one had More of an impact on me, Elsa was one of my "main group" friends. We would do everything with each other, but then she started dating him (she was also in gr 5 when he was in gr 6) and then they broke up, she says it was because of me, and she knew i liked him, she can say what she believes but i know that wasn't it. And she still hangs it over me, like it was my decision whether she should of broken up with him or not. Then it was Charlotte. And i wasn't really at this middle school at the time, but today Charlotte and i are great friends. And then last, it was the last, i would rather not say, because she is to great to have her name next to his, but she and him went out for a long time, longer than any of his other relationships. But then he had to go and be stupid and be a jerk and break up with her. But even now, I can see that he just will flirt with anyone to get them to like him and then once they do, he rips the rug from under them and goes out with someone who doesn't even know him, or he will go out with a jerk, and then they each deserve each other, but all i can remember about him now is that, my friend Elsa i told you about, she liked him at the beginning of this year and then he broke her heart and said he wouldn't hang out with her because he was going out with this girl Ellen, and my friend Elsa broke down crying over the phone, and told me everything she hated about the school, and the only reason she could come up with is him dating her, but now she has changed and has become one of them, a jerk. She has joined the people she said she never would have, but that's her decision. I'm not going to chose who she can hang out with and who she cant. But i just hope she knows, that when they turn there backs on her, just like he did on me, i wont be there, i have been there for her to much, just like i was there for him.
We had all been through some good times and some bad. But right now. I'm glad that I'm not talking to either of them, because without them... I'm better off. and i would rather have lost two friends, then be living in a lie. Which all that was, just one big barrel of lies.

-- Allie Sophia.