What to do, What to do

Everyday it feels like its repeating its self.
I wake up, get dressed, eat breakfast then run to school.
I come home, then just come on the computer waiting for him to come online. Its sad to think that i love this guy so much, i have only gone out with him once.
I have become hopeless and when we dont talk one day i think that maybe he doesnt like me anymore, and its annoying because if he doesnt but we still talk one day, i want to bring up the option of a second date, but if he doesnt like me anymore, i would be so embarrassed.
But then if i dont, and he still does, and he's waiting for me to bring it up, and i dont, then i will be wrecking things even more, i wish i could tell him all the stuff i write down here. But the thing is if i told him anything close to what i write here, he would "scream and run away"
Its like i want him to know,
but i dont because i know he probably doesnt feel half that way i feel for him.
I really dont know if i should talk to him about a second date, or if we're still "dating", because shouldnt he just tell me if he doesnt like me anymore?
I told something just now to someone i think i shouldnt of.
I told her that if he doesnt talk to me about it, then im not going to bring it up with him. then she said and what if he doesnt?
i said, well, then, he must not like me.
And if she tells him that might start drama, and i really dont want him thinking im a drama magnet.
Because thats all that ever seems to happen when im around.