Dont Forget

"Im only going to do this once so im glad its with you, you have to fall to get back up, but i wont fall after you." - Me!

Grr...
Ok so the thing is.
This guy is still playing with my emotions. and i dont want to get over him, but i really do. and it feels like if i do, then im lying to myself. But if i dont, then it feels like i might as well be dead. He was like the perfectest thing. And now he's gone, the hard thing is that, normally it would take me another guy to move on. But there are no guys to get over him with. Like, with N, it wasnt till i met J, and then i am scared that because of this reason, i will never EVER move on, i know i am saying different things with all these different posts, but like its hard. Because
i really really liked him, and i still do, but i dont know why, because i havent talked to him like forever, and like there are probably so many better girls for him.
I miss him.